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wow...

Tue, 03 May 2005 05:11:01 GMT

umm yea havent updated in a while...

MaRiSa LeArnEd HoW tO RiDe A BiKe!!!!

Fri, 11 Feb 2005 06:33:44 GMT

i got at the park just in time to see marisa ride her bike all by herself... i am SOOOOO proud of u my mar mar... it was sooo beautifullll.....

BoReD... NoT GoNNa HaVe tHe iNtErNeT.... :(!!!!

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 04:55:03 GMT

GENERAL QUESTIONS:
FULL NAME? JeNNiFeR NgUyEn
PARENTS NAMES? KhAnH aNd QuYnH NgUyEn
ETHNIC BACKGROUND? VieTnAMeSe
WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? No
NICKNAMES? JeNNy, JeN, JeNjEn, fRiEd RiCe, BooTy, HiGGeR
DAY YOU WERE BORN? OcToBeR 19tH, 1988
SIGN? LiBrA
HEIGHT? 5’4”
SHOE SIZE? 8
HAIR COLOR? DaRk BrOwN
EYE COLOR? PooPy BrOwN
SIBLINGS? EriC, 12
PETS? NoPe!
SCARS/BIRTHMARKS? Oh, I GoT ToNs oF ScArS… BattLe WouNdS… ((haha jk))
HOMETOWN? UMM… I LiVeD iN AnAhiEm FoR tHe FiRsT HaLf oF mY LiFe aNd ThEn iN ReDoNdO tHe SeCoNd HaLf… So I GuEss BoTh ArE mY HoMeToWnS…
BIRTH PLACE? FoUnTaiN VaLLeY, CA
HAVE A CRUSH RIGHT NOW? oF CoUrSe
ARE YOU A RIGHTY OR LEFTY? RiGhTy
DO YOU HAVE A BF/GF? No…
IF SO, WHO?
IF NOT, ANY PROSPECTS? MaYbE BrEtt….
WHAT/WHO DO YOU CONSIDER TO BE:
THE PERSON WITH THE MOST INFLUENCE ON YOUR LIFE? My FriEnDs, KiMMy, LeSLiE, mY DaD
YOUR GREATEST ACHIEVEMENT THUS FAR IN LIFE? BeiNg iN GirL ScoUtS fOr 7 YeArS?? I duNNo
YOUR LOWEST PART THUS FAR IN LIFE? …. I DoN’t ThiNk I ReaLLy HaVe OnE…
YOUR HIGHEST POINT THUS FAR IN LIFE? I DuNNo
WHO DO:
YOU GO TO FOR ADVICE? MaRiSa, WiNNiE, ChRiS, NaTaShA, eRiC, NiCk, MaTT, ThErEsA
WHO/WHAT HAVE YOU DREAMT ABOUT RECENTLY? SeeiNg oLd fRiEnDs RaNdoMLy
YOU TELL SECRETS TO? ALL mY fRiEnDs SiNce iM OpEn
YOU HATE? KeLsEy gLeAsoN, MeGaN NiTz, JoHn NgUyEn
WOULD YOU DIE FOR? My fRiEnDs aNd FaMiLy
YOU WRITE THE MOST EMAILS TO? DoN’t ReALLy WriTe EmAiLs Ne MoRe
RECEIVE THE MOST FROM? TaMMiE!
THE LAST:
CD YOU BOUGHT? AShLee SiMpSoN “AuToBiOgRaPhY”
MOVIE YOU SAW IN THE THEATRE: RaY
MOVIE YOU RENTED: ReNtEd??… 50 FiRst DaTeS CoN WiNNiE aNd MaRiSa LaSt YeAr! ((LOONNNGGGG TiMe AgO))
BOOK YOU READ? ThE NoTeBooK aNd tHe CruCiBLe
PERSON YOU HUGGED? LaUrEn HuMpHrEy
PERSON YOU KISSED? JoHnnY
PERSON YOU FOUGHT WITH? No OnE
GOOD DECISION YOU MADE? To CoNcEnTraTe oN ScHooL iNsTeAd oF BoYs
BAD DECISION YOU MADE? UMM… I DuNNo…
YOUR OPINION:
BEST FEELINGS? BeiNg WiTh fRiEnDs KnoWiNg ThEy’ll aLwAyS Be ThErE fOR u, LaUgHiNg uR aSS oFF aT tHiNgS, KnoWiNg ThAt SoMeOnE LiKes u, SeeiNg SoMeoNe u HavEnT SeeN iN a LoNg TiMe
WORST FEELINGS? NoT AccoMpLiShiNg ThiNgS ThAt ShOuLd HaVe BeeN DoNe
HOBBIES? ShOppiNg, SpEnDiNg TiMe with fRiEnDs, MoViEs, FaMiLy TiMe, EaTiNg
FAVORITE VACATION SPOTS? HaWaii, NeW YoRk, tHe BeaCh
HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR AOL/AIM BUDDY LIST? 150
FAVORITE SEASON? SuMMeR aNd SpRiNg
FAVORITE PASTIME? ShOppiNg
ON THE OPPOSITE SEX:
LONG OR SHORT HAIR? DePeNdS oN tHe GuY
TALL OR SHORT? TaLLeR ThAn Me
GREAT BOOBS OR NICE ASS? NiCe Ass ((I’M a BooTy GiRL))
EARS PIERCED OR NOT? DePeNdS
TAN OR FAIR? DePeNdS oN tHe GuY
FRECKLES OR NOT? FrEcKLeS aRe CuTe
ACCENT OR NOT? BRITISH ACCENT! YuM…. OR AuStRaLiAn WoRkS, BuT ThoSe aRe The OnLy tWO
WITH OR WITHOUT HATS? DePeNdS oN tHe GuY
NICE LEGS OR NICE ARMS? BoTh
WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A PARTNER? SeNsE oF HuMoR, ResPeCt FoR mE, HiMseLf aNd mY fRiEnDs, JuSt ThEiR PeRsoNaLiTy
ARE YOU SCARED TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? YeAh
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF/ABOUT:
TEEN SMOKING? BaD, No LuNg CaNcEr pLeAse
BOY BANDS? LoL… My KiNd oF TeEnY BoPPeR-NeSS…
DEATH? R.I.P. MDH
RAPE? HoRRiBLe
SUICIDE? TeN TiMeS WoRsE ThAn RaPe
ABORTION? IT DePeNdS oN tHe PeRsOn, BuT iTs PrEtty BaD
THE DEATH PENALTY? DePeNdS I GuESs…
CHEESE? MaRiSa!!! SHe LiKes ChEEsE ((haha))
SOUTH PARK? WhO KiLLeD KeNNy! FuNNy ShOw…
RELIGION IN SCHOOLS? I DuNNo
SCHOOL UNIFORMS? GooD FoR WhEn I DoN’t KnoW WhAt tO WeAr iN tHe MoRniNgs, BuT I BeT tHey SuCk
WAR? Bad…
WOULD YOU EVER:
CHEAT ON YOUR BF/GF? ThAt’S a HUGE HELLZ NAW
SLEEP WITH SOMEONE TO GET SOMETHING YOU WANTED? No, I AiNt a sLuT
GO OUT WITH A PERSON YOU THOUGHT OF AS JUST A FRIEND? No, CuZ ThAt’S nOt NiCE
HAVE CASUAL SEX? STiLL a ViRgiN
WHAT IS:
THE MOST ROMANTIC THING SOMEONE HAS EVER DONE FOR YOU? RoMaNtiC? WeLL… WhiLe Me aNd LeO WaTcHeD tHe FiReWoRkS ToGeThER, I ToLd HiM I CoULdN’t See aNd hE OffErEd mE tO GeT oN HiS ShOuLdErS ((I ReFuSed)) BuT iT WaS NiCe WaTcHiNg ThE FiReWoRkS ToGetHeR aNd ThEn SpEnDiNg aN HouR oR TwO iN tHe JaCuZZi aNd ThEn Me And HiM aND a BuNch oF OtHeR PeOpLe ChiLL-aXeD tHe ReSt oF tHe NiTe… *SiGhS*
THE MOST EXPENSIVE THING YOU HAVE EVER BOUGHT FOR A FRIEND OR PARTNER? No OnE ReALLy BuYs mE Ne ThiNg ExPeNsiVe
THE COOLEST STORY YOU HAVE TO TELL US? CooLeSt??… No OnE ReALLy LiKeS my StoRiEs BeSiDeS eRiC… sO No Se
THE MEANEST THING YOU'VE DONE TO SOMEONE ELSE? I DuNNo… I’m NoT ThAt MeAn, PeOpLe arE UsUaLLy MeAn To Me
THE BEST PIECE OF ADVICE YOU COULD GIVE SOMEONE? "LiVe LiKe ThErE WeRe No ToMoRRoW”
THE SADDEST STORY YOU'VE HEARD/EXPERIENCED? THe WhoLe MiKe SiTuAtiOn
YOUR BIGGEST GOAL? TO gET StRaiGhT A’s! ((HoW ChEEsY iS ThAt???))
THE EXPERIENCE FROM YOUR LIFE YOU'D CHANGE THE MOST? ThE ThiNgS I WeNt ThRouGh LaSt YeAr…

HoLLeR!!!!

Sat, 27 Nov 2004 07:28:19 GMT

welll ummmm today... i got to drive all day except the ride home tonite cuz i was REALLY tired... and i ate a shit load of fodd... o well... cuz it was GOODDDDD!!! i kinda wanna go home cuz im all bored, but then i dont really wanna ccuz i wanna see my cousins real bad cuz i miss them o so much! and i wanna go shopping cuz i got 100 bucks cuz its early christmas money... so hopefully i dont use it yet... gotta keep it in a safe spot!! but ya.. .coming home late sunday... and i'll be REALLY tired at school on monday... o well i guess... ummmm... no se what else to talk about... life is going good i suppose since i aint at home right now to go through a bunch of dramma! but ya... it flows... B-E-A-utifulll...

i am SO STOKED for the powderpuff game!!! ((12.o7))

OaKLaNd! HOLLERRRR!!!

Fri, 26 Nov 2004 04:21:37 GMT

so ya... i got to drive to oakland... holler... but my cousins arent here cuz theyre in lake tahoe... so im totally bored... happy thanksgiving to all! i hope everyone ate alot!!!!! have a nice thanksgiving weekend too! im thankful to have all of u guys as my friends! *muah*
B-E-A-utifull....

My PoWdERPuFF GaMe~ 12.o7

HaPPy BiRtHdAy LesLiE!!!!!

Thu, 25 Nov 2004 06:09:12 GMT

Hmmm…… today… was allright I guess, nothing biggie Kevin ((the cute sophomore in my chem. Class)) is being a jerk so I hate him now, and since he cut his beautiful hair short, he aint that cute no more… had powder puff practice after school… holler…. It was fun… thanksgiving 2morrow… SO STOKED! I got a sweatshirt today for 10 bucks! HOLLER! I love it… its pretty… its white and it has the billabong sign in hot pink on it, then on top of it, it has billabong written in cursive in black and then on top of that, it has billabong stitched in lime green and then in the hood, its black and says billabong all over it in hot pink and on the back, theres a small billabong sign… so holler… just finished watching that AI Christmas episode with Kelly, ruben and fantasia… man I love Kelly… so beautifull…. I still gotta pack…
I realized that I usually like guys cuz theyre cute, but when I REALLY like them, theyre not that cute ((or at least most people wouldn’t think that they were cute))… I mean look at the past guys ive liked, Johnny, not so cute, cheyne, not that cute… but when they are cute, I like them, but its just like lust u know? Like leo, he was a major cutie, Brendan paskach ((o ya hot shit)), Kevin ((man was he CUTE)) and so on… and I don’t think ne thing would think brett was a cutie… SOOOOO!!! In conclusion, he mite be more than just a little crush…. B-E-A-utifull….

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR LESLIE!!!!

I love u tiffany/leslle/ao!!! Ur so almost ghetto/preppy/valley girl! Haha! HOLLER! I cant wait to see u on Saturday! We’re gonna go ROLLIN’! go shopping too! Yayayayayay!!!!

CuZ u ArE mY SuPeRsTaR....

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 04:38:28 GMT

So… today…. Ummmm…… it was cold… and my lip still hurt like a bitch… and ummm still a little frustrated over leo… and I talked to Natasha about this shit and I really hate it… cuz I don’t understand why u know? Ive never cheated on any of my boy friends that ive had, ive never used them, ive never been a horrible girl friend, im never clingy, and I don’t understand why the girls that are those things or do those things have boyfriends…. It just doesn’t make sense to me, and maybe cuz I keep on obsessing about it, its not happening… its just the little things that sets me off… but whatever… test in trig was easy… kinda worried about 2morrows… eekkk… kinda… got a test in Spanish 2morrow… but I hope we don’t so we can finish dirty dancing Havana nights… me gusta! Me and Jordan were all adding in our own commentary! It was SO funnai… hes such a CUTIE!!!! I LOVE HIM! with gorgeous eyes… and then at lunch there were all these children running up and down the hallway and of course theres Mr. Ryan Gonzalez running with them… and I was like o man wow.. and he was like SHUT UP! And I was like FUCK U! and then he laughed and he was like hi! And I was like hi! And he was like o man jenny and gave me a hug… hes such a cutie! I love that kid… its just little things like that that makes me happy….ne ways… no se… got powderpuff practice 2morrow… im kinda happy to have it… cuz I really wanna practice and its not like I can practice with ne one else cuz they got their own lives going on and I don’t wanna be like intruding… no se… B-E-A-utifull..

“…and hes shorter than her” – Me
“Hey!” – Jordan
“sorry about that Jordan, I forgot u had a disadvantage like that too” - Me

“That’s just how they roll”

“What a lame push.” – Bucky
“He’s a dancer not a fighter” – Jordan

hahaha… maybe u had to be there… but it was HI-larious… what a cutie…

and I am officially a Higger, says Bucky, he made it up in Spanish.
Higger = wannabe Hawaiian/black person
Too damn funny….

I am IN LOVE with this song right now….

This is for u, u, my number one
This is for u, u, my number one
This is for u, u, my number one

Spotlights, big stage
50 thousand fans sceamin in a rafe
bodyguards and limousines
this is the way I see u in my dreams
paparazzi flash, 100 pictures all of u
hangin on my bedroom wall
im a kid again, I feel like 13
but I knew since we fell in love
girl, id be
I’ll be ur groupie baby
Cuz u are my superstar
Im ur number one fan, give me ur autograpgh
Sign it right here on my heart
Girl I’ll be ur groupie baby
Cuz u are my superstar
And as ur number one fan
Ill do all that I can
To show u how super u are
Front row, there I am
Jumping and hollerin waving both hands
Would u notice me, little me
Drove 12 hours girl just tosee
Ur pretty face one more time
Bought my ticket I was first in line
This is a metaphor to show how I adore you
Baby I do
I’ll be ur groupie baby
Cuz u are my superstar
Im ur number one fan, give me ur autograpgh
Sign it right here on my heart
Girl I’ll be ur groupie baby
Cuz u are my superstar
And as ur number one fan
Ill do all that I can
To show u how super u are
Now u know how I feel
Ur truly special
Ur love is legendary to me
Without u my life stands still
I’ll never leave ur world
Treat u like a diva girl
Girl ur one of a kind
Cuz they don’t make ‘em like u anymore
So I’ll be ur fan for life
I dedicate this to my superstar for all time
I’ll be ur groupie baby
Cuz u are my superstar
Im ur number one fan, give me ur autograpgh
Sign it right here on my heart
Girl I’ll be ur groupie baby
Cuz u are my superstar
And as ur number one fan
Ill do all that I can
To show u how super u are

ughhh

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 00:22:42 GMT

Can I get ANYMORE FRUSTRATED???? Seriously…. So today was iffy… a Monday… its chillaxed… were watching dirty dancing Havana nights in spanish! Rock on… umm so I had powderpuff today… I ran into sara… like FULL ON! Her head ran into my lip and made my lip bleed…thank gawd its not swollen or nothing… then I was wide open and had to catch a pass that was two feet in front of me… Didn’t! im SO pissed off at myself.. I was about to cry! I mean COME ON! And then he goes off and yells at me for not catching it and he wont throw passes at the tightends if we don’t catch it! And then some chick! She will be unnamed, is supposedly a tightend and shes not even following the cards! WTF man! Gawd damn… then I call leo tonite… ironically, its been a month since my birthday dinner, and im like hi its jenny, and hes like o hey whats up and it was kinda quiet for a bit cuz I was waiting for him to say he was sorry, and then I was like so were u EVER gonna say sorry for not coming to my dinner? And he was like well I didn’t have a ride and I didn’t have ur number, and I was like couldn’t u just get my number from someone and he was like well who would have it? And I was like eric knows Stephanie and Stephanie has my number! And he was all like o well I didn’t know and I was like leo… its just makes me SO mad… I don’t even know what to say ne more… to tell u the truth, I liked u, I really did, I thought u were the one, u were my future husband, and then all he said was “uh huh” and I was like o my gosh… and then I was like I really don’t understand leo.. I really don’t… and then it was dead silent for like 5 minutes and he was like well im sorry I don’t know, im sorry and I was like FUCKKKKKKKK…. All I wanted to do was fucking yell at him, show him what happens when people get me mad…but of course I gotta say its ok… then its dead silent for another 5 minutes and then he goes I gotta go… I’ll talk to u later and I was like allright bye… and I hung up… MY FUCKING FAT ASS he will EVER talk to me later… seriously, I think this will be the LAST time he and I will EVER talk… but whatever u know… I just hate how I always choose the wrong guys… I mean, for all I know, brett mite be the worst guy to be liking right now… B-E-A-fucking utifull…

My GrEaT/WiShEd iT DiDnT HaPPeN DrEaM...

Mon, 22 Nov 2004 06:14:28 GMT

so ya... this is my dream... we were at someones birthday party cuz there was a shitload of food there and a lot of people, all my friends, winnie, marisa, theresa, ashley, alex, chris, victoria, marie blah blah blah... and obviously the birthday person ahd to be a friend of everyone there cuz ashley and theresa were there, or maybe it was just a party... ne ways... so im walking around chit chatting with winnie and then someone comes up behind me and i turn around and its leo... and im like hi... and i was like what? since he doesnt know ne of my friends and then he sat with me like i had invited him to the party and i really dont think it was my party since there were a bunch of adults that i didnt know there... then i was introducing him to everyone, and it seemed like i had totally forgot what he had done to me.. and i ended up sitting on his lap cuz there were no more chairs and we spent the whole day together u know? and i was like wtf when i woke up... cuz it felt SO real...i hate when dreams do that to me... so the entire day he was all i could think about... and i was determined to call him today when i got home from orange county because i wanted my "closure" ((like in friends when rachel wanted closure with ross, even though it didnt really happen cuz they hooked up at theend of the show! so cute)) but my mom was on the phone till like 9:30 and then right after matt called, and leos house is asleep by 10... so maybe tomorrow... but i got powderpuff practice till 9... meh.. hopefully this closure happens some time cuz i REALLY need it... like badly... but other than that... things are going good i suppose... i really hope so... B-E-A-utifull...

PoWdEr PuFF GaMe~ 12.o7 ((BETTER BE THERE!!!))

hmmm...

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 05:03:55 GMT

yesterday was fun.... schoolhouse rock was bomb... it made me laugh SO hard... and yay theresa! BUT! i guess i was being TOO LOUD! so next time when i go to these things, im not gonna even say ne thing... just sit in my seat... its not my fault im just supporting a friend! but! whatever... then me and marisa went back to my house and we made s'mores!!!!! YUMMERSSSS!!!! it was SOOOOOOO good! AH! first time for marisa! and we talked and junk... it was fun...
tomorrow... i got powderpuff practice ((HoLLeR)) then i think im going shopping con mi madre and then i really wanna go to the charity basketball game... but no se who to go with... winnie mite come with me, but shes not sure... and eric has his dumb photo assignments to do... no se... but hit me up if u wanna go 2morrow! at 5! at costa! B-E-A-utifulll....

eric told me something today... :D!!!!! but i dont wanna get TOO excited....

oo0o00o0o0o!!! HOLLLERRRRRR!!!! rachel bilson ALL the way!

Sat, 20 Nov 2004 23:52:12 GMT

You are SUMMER'S BOOBS.

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You are Rachel Bilson! You're sexy and
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uGh...

Fri, 19 Nov 2004 05:51:40 GMT

So today could have been one of the poopiest days ever… all of today added on top of everything else that is going on… I got mayonnaise totally squirted on the back of my jacket and hair at lunch so I smelt like mayo the rest of the day… which isn’t that delicious… it almost made me puke…and this morning my dad was all saying that I go out too much… ya… right…. And then at girl scouts, shit started again… nothing bad, its just cuz they mess with me too much and they know im sensitive, but whatever u know? And then maddie has to bring up leo… fucking shit dude… its bad enough to have mayo on u, but to bring up someone that I don’t even wanna think about ever again? The one person that crushed my heart That one guy that stole my heart in one night and then tore it apart, threw it on the ground, stomped on it, and then spat on it. I really thought he was the one that wasn’t gonna treat me like shit or lead me on like the other guys ive liked, but I guess I was really wrong, and to tear my heart apart even more, he hasn’t called or anything… not even to say he was sorry… not even to give a dumb excuse why he couldn’t come… and I have the urge to call him so bad… but whenever I even think about dialing his number, I feel like breaking down and crying…I feel like if I cant be liked by even a little freshman that doesn’t know shit about girls, then what the fuck am I even doing bothering? I mean really? Of all people, of ALL the people that goes through the most boy drama, it has to happen to me… usually, girls, they get the most perfect guy ever after about 2 or 3 mishaps, but me…. Why am I so different? I just wanna call him and tell him that I totally fell in love with him, that I looked forward to seeing him for so long, that I talked about him to everyone I knew, that I wasn’t embarrassed that he was a freshman and I was a junior, that my heart beated faster and faster everytime the phone would ring after dialing his number, that I ran to the phone everytime it rang hoping it was him that was calling, that everytime we talked I just wanted to tell him how I felt, that it kills me to hear his name, see his name somewhere or even to watch even stevens!
I officially hate my life, and I aint writing this shit so people can feel bad for me, seriously, cuz that’s the LAST thing I would do, I like writing all my feelings out so I don’t keep them bottled up inside, I do this, so its not like im talking to one person who I don’t even think really cares, im just letting it out for me, not for sympathy…

GoTTa LoVe tHe PoWdErPuFF...

Thu, 18 Nov 2004 05:48:21 GMT

today was... allright i suppose... nothing spazz-stic... except that austin is being SO mean to me... jerk... i was the one involved in getting them back together... i was the middle person... but whatever u know... people arent grateful no more... but ya... i dunno, blahness... powder puff... i love it even more everytime i play... the people and the sport! i dunno... im just in love with it... i dont need boys cuz i got my girls and football!we got practice on sunday! yay... theres only two tight ends... and hopefully it'll stay that way so i can play alot...and i hope imma be first string cuz the other tight end is marissa lynsley, shes good, but to me, shes kinda really like o my gosh! i dunno... i like her though... B-E-A-utifull...

.:<PoWdEr-PuFF3:. HoLLeR!!! DoWn BiTchEs!

bLaH bLaH bLaH...

Wed, 17 Nov 2004 06:23:43 GMT

ummm today was a good day i suppose... i was SO tired... i got home and took a 2 hour nap that felt like 10 hours... no joke... and i watched last week's smallville that peter taped for me! thanks baby! it was muy bien! i liked it! ummm.... i wanna get my license SO bad... no joke... i mean im SO ready! and my dad even applied me for a credit card already so when i can drive, i can get gas and junk! and of course MAJOR SHOPPING! jk... cuz i dont max out my cards like that... blah blah blah blah.... B-E-A-utifull....

PoWdEr PuFF GaMe ~ 12.o7

DoWn BiTcHeS!!!

Tue, 16 Nov 2004 06:09:03 GMT

O my gosh…. My mom is fucking PISSING ME OFF! Why is she telling me that I think money is cheap? Uh obviously she doesn’t know SHIT about me! She tells me I go shopping all the time and buy a shit load of stuff! ACTUALLY I don’t! the money she gives me is usually for food! And I come home with clothes cuz… umm… *ahem* and im doing that cuz I don’t wanna use money! Giving 20 bucks each time I go out? 10 bucks is towards food! Wtf am I gonna do with the other 10? She acts like I don’t know things are expensive! She should see all the other people at my school whose paying about 7 times more for jeans than I am! She should see girls going around with 40 buck shirts on. She should see their families spoil them with new cars right when they get their license or buying them over 300 bucks worth of clothes whenever they go shopping which is 2 pairs of jeans! Where does she get going to say that I think that money is cheap! I even told her I wanted to get a job to get money and she fucking tells me no! This all started with the SAT classes, saying im wasting her money for not doing them!
I didn’t even wanna fucking take those dumb SAT classes! All I need is the 15 dollar book and that’s all the fuck I need! Why are u gonna pay 600 dollar classes for me when I don’t fucking need them! IM not the one wasting more, YOU are OBVIOUSLY! Cuz I didn’t wanna take these dumb classes that aren’t gonna help me for beans!
It just fucking pisses me off cuz shes yelling at me for shit shes assuming… gawd fucking damn… these are the things that piss me off the most, especially when it aint true! Its just plain dumb, I mean really! Shes the one going out buying 10 pairs of shoes! Even if they are only like 7 bucks each, she don’t fucking wear them! That’s $70 bucks! WASTED! I don’t have one pair of shoes to wear and shes going out buying shoes she wont even wear! It just fucking pisses me off…. Things like this ruin the good things that are happening in my life u kno? Ugh im so frustrated… thank gawd there was powderpuff tonight… along with that a bunch of shit has been going on… I dunno, cuz this is just how I feel… I feel like I don’t belong ne more… like I know I got a bunch of friends who care ((not to sound cocky and shit)) but I feel like I cant get along with ne one ne more… and it makes me cry to even think that… I feel like no one can like understand what ive been through and what im going through right now…. no matter how much I tell someone, it just wont stop hurting u kno? I really don’t understand what im feeling right now…sometimes I feel like everything is going fine and then the next minute it turns into mush… like I cant relate to ne one ne more, like I don’t understand what is going on, like everyones moved on together and just left me there by myself to grow up by myself…I feel like ive been left, like im just a back-up person, or someone to talk to when no one else is around, I feel like I cant tell ne one ne thing cuz im scared they mite get mad of something I said and wont be my friend ne more, I feel like I cant even tell ne thing to even my bestest friends…I feel like no one wants to listen to me talk and no one likes the way I act, I feel like no one wants to be my friend cuz im too loud at the wrong times and when im too quiet at the times where I should be loud…I just feel like I don’t belong… I feel like I shouldn’t be where I am right now…I feel like I shouldn’t have the friends that I do because to me, I don’t seem like I care even though I really do, I feel like I do shit for people, like im just there so I wont look like a loser, I feel like just a tagalong, and whenever im somewhere else and not where im supposed to be, im afraid of people being mad cuz I wasn’t there where I was supposed to be…I feel like im just using people but I don’t know for what, cuz its not like im using my friends for their money, or to hook up with their friends, or for shelter or ne thing… so I don’t know why I feel this way when I think im not…I feel like I cant be loved by another guy again… I feel like I get to obsessive or clingy… I feel like I will never find that one for me especially since I think every guy I see is the one… I feel like I’ll never appeal to any guy because of the way I act… I feel like im the most obnoxious person in the world that seriously doesn’t deserve shit in life, I got no point, I have no talents, im not athletic ((says this person ive known since forever when I told them I was doing powderpuff)), I cant sing, I cant play an instrument, I have no interest in being a doctor or dentist ((natural for an asian to become)), and when I told a person I wanted to become an actress they told me I couldn’t cuz I was fat… so wtf am I gonna do with my life? If u seriously look at all those famous people, they are drop dead gorgeous, and even if they weren’t, they started acting when they were a kid and grew up with it, with their parents supporting them all the way, when I told my parents I wanted to do this, they told me it was a waste of time and I shouldn’t even try, and my dad wants me to become a doctor, why the fuck am I gonna do something that I don’t even wanna do… I don’t wanna become an actress for the money, I wanna be a rolemodel to some little girl that loves all my movies or TV shows, I wanna be decorated in some girl/boys room. I wanna be noticed when I go out, I wanna meet Jay Leno or Ellen DeGeneres and be on a talk show. I wanna meet adam sandler or Brittany Murphy and say o my gosh I love u and them telling me that im their kids idol or that they love my shows! I wanna give my money to charity, I wanna adopt so many kids that I’ll have to buy a mansion with 10 rooms for each other them to live in….
Powderpuff was fun… I can barely raise my arm…. Caught some crazy passes….i hope I can still get my jersey fixed…. No se…. B-E-A-utifull….

.:<????3:.

i tHiNk i'M iN LoVe...

Sat, 13 Nov 2004 23:27:55 GMT

wow... this week has been ups and downs... powder puff is fun... im a tight end if i havent said that yet... i went to the redondo costa game yesterday.. .we lost... damn... o well... 42-7... pathetic... but its allright, i got to chillax with my baseball guys again and then winnie and marisa and justine came! then they sat next to me and brian luttrull decides to squish in between me and marisa! geezus! HOW RUDE! and i found out that robert gilbert moved to ENGLAND!!! i loved that child... ummm... but wutevers... then these dumb immature 8th graders who were sitting behind us were bugging my poor brett... they put popcorn on his seat when he got up to cheer and then he sat down on it! and one of the girls was all like o i'll clean it up and made it eve n more messy! and i was like o my gosh... so i wiped it off his seat since im so nice... then they were flicking his ears and bugging the hell outta him... and i felt so bad.... my poor baby... we are gonna get married someday! i know it! ((hehe)) we're gonna have jewish asian kids! man i love that kid.... and it sucks... B-E-A-utifull.....

.:<3:.

R.I.P.
MDH and Julio

No ScHooL!!

Thu, 11 Nov 2004 17:29:50 GMT

ummm ya yesterday was allright... then i had powderpuff practice while everyone was out and having fun... :/... o well... we actually got to play this time... it was fun... im a tight end! yeyeah! i ahd to go against lauren humphrey and o0o0o SHIT! shes VICIOUS! even though shes SO sweet and would neverhurt a fly! o girrrrll! it was fun though... i love that girl... and while people got switched in and out, i had to stay in... and marissa and teresa are the other tight ends so we swtiched back and forth... im SO incredibly sore... i dunno what im doing today... this is poop.... B-E-A-utifull....

R.I.P.
MDH and Julio

PoWdA-PuFF!!! HoLLeR! ((HaHa aLLiE!!!))

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 07:05:37 GMT

ummm today was iffy... i guess... no se... i had powder puff practice! ti was going great at first... and i joined the group of people going out for quarterback and i made it to like the top 10 and then he sent me and sweden somewhere else and we didnt get to come back... :(... so i dunno what went on there... i was kinda sad cuz i tried really hard, but i didnt try that hard catching, cuz i suck at that and whats the point when im trying to go for QB? no se... i just really wanna be QB or defense cuz i cant catch for shit... and i cant run for diddly-squat... so ya... :/... ne ways... i watched gothika con mi madre and hermano... what a creepy movie... i love hallie berry.... but ya... the end.... B-E-A-utifull....

R.I.P.
Mike and Julio

Mon, 08 Nov 2004 05:00:12 GMT

wow... Mikes memorial was nice... a shit load of people were there, and there were people up there saying stuff... it was so good... i cried of course... and the whole thing with the guys paddling out into the sunset and REALLY pretty.... i feel so bad for mike davids... poor kid... i miss u mike... english will never ever be the same again... even mrs. caleshibetta came to see u! i love u homie... when i came home, i showed my mom the paper that they gave out and my mom was all like awww he has a cute smile! and my dad was like he looks like a good kid and i was about to cry cuz he is and i miss him so much and even though i didnt know him as well as all the other people, he still meant something to me...
so ya... im watching cruel intentions... gosh i want a boyfriend... not just to be like o0o0o i have a bf blah blah blah... its just i miss the things u feel and how he makes u feel... i know i have friends that love me and junk, but its just different... i dont know how to explain it... i miss the feeling of someone holding me tight and knowing that they'll always stick up for me and care for me, i miss the feeling of someone making me laugh so hard that i have to pee, knowing my guy friends all like lovey-dovey with girls or breaking their hearts over girls, i even wonder if theres someone breaking their heart over me but then im like why would they?

It's hard with u not around
know u in heaven smiling down
watching us while we pray for u
till the day we meet again
in my heart is where i'll keep u friend
memories give me the strength i need
to proceed strength i need to believe
i cant wait till that day, when i see ur face again...

MiKe'S MeMoRiAL iS ToMoRRoW, oN 9tH St. iN MB aT 4:00Pm

Sun, 07 Nov 2004 06:06:34 GMT

well today i had to wake up early to go to my VERY FUN SAT classes! JOY! not! i was all alone...but i got to drive to my uncles house! yayaya! fun! then i got home... called max cuz we had a date... ((no awws please, read the WHOLE story)) i had called yesterday and he was watching a movie and said hed call back when it was done, and of course he never did, then when i got home from santa ana, i called him again and was like hey what are u doing? and he was like watching a movie and i was like uhhh ok... and then i was like so am i still coming over? and he was like what? and i was like uhhh we were gonna go rent a movie remember? and he was like that was today? i thought it was tomorrow. and i wasl ike no thats tonite, and he was like o well im sick, and i was like ok? and he was like ya sorry and i was like ugh whatever and he was like are u mad cuz i have bad memory? and i was like im mad cuz u ALWAYS forget when we have plans! and he was like well sorry i have bad memory ((and he ALWAYS does this shit just to make ME feel bad when HES the one that should feel bad)) and i was like ok whatever max and he was like ok bye and i just hung up... this shit blows! i mean i blew off some other people cuz of him and we end up not doing it AS USUAL! i mean i shouldnt even make plans with him ne more! its his ideas to go out! it just pisses me off...
BUT! on a lighter note, me and marisa went shopping... winnie was still at her SAT classes... :bummed: theresa had her rehearsals... :bummed: so ya... it was fun... i tried on this "shrug" this, it was REALLY furry and blue! it was HI-larious.... and i had a REALLY good talk with my cousin joe about boys.... thanks baby... i really appreciate it... and u'll move on, no worries... fuck laura, she can do whatever with zac, u can get that chicks friend! ((haha)) B-E-A-utifulll...

R.I.P.
MDH and Julio

Fri, 05 Nov 2004 07:00:14 GMT

i know, i commented with this on theresas entry, but this is worth everyone else seeing it...

now i feel really bad for telling u ur hair was soft... i wish i knew waht u were going through cuz i know i really dont, and i dont understand cuz im not going through it and i really wish i could help, but i cant, i wish this wouldnt have happened, but no matter how much i wish, it wont happen, i wish u didnt have to feel all this pain, especially someone like u that really doesnt deserve it, i would trade places with u right now just to be hurt and when u got better, switch back, cuz u REALLY dont deserve it, ur the NICEST person i know, i mean look at me, i probably got a I-Hate-Jenny club like in friends or something thats compiled of Megan and John!
theresa, i know this wont make u feel ne better, and i wish it would have... i just want u to know that i love u dearly! SO much that u dont even know! i love u more than 10 of adam brody! ((and thats a SHIT LOAD of love))

RATED R!!!!

Fri, 05 Nov 2004 06:26:50 GMT

O MAN! the OC was great! and something else was!!! hmm... should i say? maybe not... but im SO glad the OC is back!!! YAYAYAYAY!!!! thanks for coming over justine, winnie, chris and alex! i love u guys!... B-E-A-utifulll....

R.I.P.
MDH and Julio

WhY

Thu, 04 Nov 2004 06:00:11 GMT

i dont understand why everyone is dying? first Mike, then that freshie's dad, then theresas friend Julio! what is wrong? this REALLY shows us how short life is, how we should never EVER take ne thing for granted, i know i would kill myself if winnie or marisa or alex or theresa or ashley or ne one of my friends died, i would not wanna be in the place of megan morgan or kira belouf or mike davids, ne of those people that were so close to mike, its horrible to see them go through that, especially now, when no one wuold have thought it could happen...
i never really cared when our people died in Iraq during the war, i was like aww that sucks, o well, im over it, but now i know how horrible it is, those people had family and friends that cared for them and mourned over them, just like mike, his family and friends including me, its just not the same in english ne more...
We should never ever take ne thing for granted ne more, its just not right, im saying all this cuz some people take SO many things for granted and u really shouldnt, all of ur friends and family, they're there for a reason, cuz they love u and care about u...
ending my speech, i want to say to all the people that are reading this, i love u, no matter what i say, do, or how i act, im just dumb and it happens... i love u all always and forever...

HaPPy BiRtHdAy tO mY MaDDiE

Thu, 04 Nov 2004 05:43:14 GMT

why... why is so much shit going on... ugh... so frustrating....

.:HaPPy BiRtHdAy MaDDiE!!!:.

maddie, i love u muchos man! even though u owe me a shit load of money, u know u can trust me with ur life, u know i will always ALWAYS love u no matter what. I got ur back all the way and it'll be that way until the end of time...

iN LoViNg MeMoRy oF MiKe...

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 04:54:53 GMT

iN LoViNg MeMoRy oF MiChAeL DoUgLaS HaMMoNd…
today in English, she had us write our feelings out into a letter to mike and I really didn’t feel like saying mine out loud cuz I know my voice would have cracked and mine sucked ne ways…

Dearest Mike,
Even though we weren’t the best of friends, we still had tons of fun together in class. I don’t understand why u did what u did even after u know what could have happened. Its been hard on so many people that u were taken away. You should see how many people you have touched in ur life, how many people that love u and miss u. No one would have thought that someone that was loved by so many people would have been gone from us. You are such an intelligent guy and u could have gone so far in life, but u had to give it up for drugs. Mike, I know ur smarter than that… but things happen to prove a point. You being gone has made such an impact on the school, everyone took a step back and realized that any day could be their last. You were one of the last people I would think to even want ur life to end… You enjoyed life so much even if u hated most of it…Everything is so different at school now, and I wish I could just turn back time and help. Even though none of this is gonna bring u back, it’ll help me. So many people care about you and you never really realize that until you are gone. And even then, you don’t even know, but I hope you knew that because so many people do care about u and love u, its difficult for ne one to go through something like this, especially with such a great guy like you gone. You are such a beautiful person that really didn’t deserve to leave…
Mike, you will always be in our hearts, minds, and prayers. May you rest in peace.

1<3,
Jenny Nguyen

Its not as heart warming as kiras or jessicas or dan’s poem cuz I haven’t known him as long, but I cried so much while writing it… and mike should know that I cried like 50 times today and I usually don’t cry… B-E-A-utifulll….

R.I.P. MiChAeL DoUgLaS HaMMoNd… FoReVeR iN OuR HeArTs… ((88-04))

The laughter u gave us everyday
All the jokes u would say
Now we’re left in all this sorrow
Only to have each other’s memories to borrow
Why were you taken from us, especially someone like u
Someone who was loved by so many had to leave us out of the blue
The sound of ur voice is what anyone would give to hear
Even though we cant always see u, we know that u’ll always be near
To take away our fears
To wipe away our fears
To watch us from above
We will miss u, ur laughter and love